Is it natural to feel like throwing up after booking your wedding?

On February 2, 2010, I became engaged to my boyfriend. And on April 6, 2011 ­– after a few postponements and snags in the planning – we booked our wedding. That’s 14 months or 428 days or 10,272 hours in which I had known I would be getting married. So I was a little shocked by my reaction when we FINALLY booked our wedding venue – panic! I literally felt nauseous. I asked my fiancé “Is it natural to feel like throwing up immediately after booking your wedding?” Surprisingly he said yes. He told me how his sister felt the same way after buying her house, so it must be natural to feel that way after making a huge life decision. He has been so calm through this whole process and I have been a complete wreck, mainly because I never actually wanted a wedding. When we became engaged all I had in my head was that I waned to be his wife. A wedding never even crossed my mind. But I accepted the fact that the actual ceremony is extremely important to my fiancé and our families.

Now that we are a couple months away from the wedding I am finding myself getting excited. At first I was very worried about how we were going to be able to pay for it and the burden it would put on our parents, but everything has fallen into place wonderfully. The thing I was dreading the most was going wedding dress shopping. I am not a girlie girl by any means. I almost never wear dresses and I NEVER wear high heels. So going to pick out a dress that I would wear while 50 people stared at me was not something I was looking forward to. I would rather sit through the Lord of the Rings trilogy while listening to rap music! But I have to say it was less painful than I expected it to be and I walked away with a dress that is both comfortable and flattering. Although I do not hate all this wedding crap as much anymore, I am ready for it be done and over with so we can begin our new life together. Oh and party like rockstars with our family and friends!

Back in the saddle again

It’s been a while since my last blog entry… alright it’s been a looooong while. That’s not to say I haven’t written anything, because I have started numerous ones over the last few months. But I thought I would spare you the torture of hearing me whine about how much I hate the holidays or how looking for a job sucks or how bad I wished I was camping. So instead I waited until the holidays passed and I had a good subject to write about.

I was on the fence regarding my diet for a while. Around Thanksgiving I decided to take a break from my eating plan during the holidays. I felt if I wasn’t going to be committing to it 100% then it would be a waste of money. That doesn’t mean I dove in face first into a plate full of turkey, stuffing and pumpkin pie! I still maintained portion control and really didn’t overindulge. At the end of December, I had only gained back a few pounds. Which I think is pretty good!

However, once the holidays were over I decided to jump back on the wagon. At first I was confident I would go back on the eating plan, which I did. By day three I had actually gained 1.5 pounds! So I went off again. I discussed it with my fiancé, who also wants to be healthy, and he suggested we start an exercise plan and eat healthy, which we did. For the first 3 weeks I did fantastic. I was exercising regularly and eating pretty well. I felt great! That is until I stepped on the scale and didn’t see the results I thought I would. Physically I was seeing definition in my body that I had never seen, but I was still not losing. My disappointment with my progress combined with my fiancé getting really sick for almost a week caused a lull in my workouts and increase in my bad eating habits. I quickly gained back a few more pounds!

So once again I am back on my eating plan. It’s been a week and I have already lost 5 pounds! But what I am most happy about is that I feel better. The only real concern I have is whether I will be able to maintain my weight lose when I go off of the plan, but I have confidence that I will be able to. The weather will start warming up soon and that always inspires me to not eat as much. Another inspiration is my upcoming wedding, which means getting into a wedding dress! YIKES! But that is whole other blog entry.